Desire is the path to hell

Jessica Mullen

Desire is the path to hell

Jessica Mullen
SO happy and grateful
I can channel my anger
and misery
into creation
So happy and grateful i can let go and not give a fuck
so happy and grateful
I can choose to not care
I can just cry it off
Oh well
So angry

So grateful i can stop repulsing myself
i can stop hating myself
i can choose to love myself

what are your desires
what are your paths to hell

i want to be a famous musician
i just want to make music

wanting to make music is the path to hell

i want to be free of addictions

wanting to be free of addictions is the path to hell

i want to be left alone
wanting to be left alone is the path to hell

i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

i want to make good work

wanting to make good work is the path to hell
all is outside of this moment

what is missing from this moment?
i am projecting myself into the future
wishing my work was done
wanting to get high
wanting to get drunk

wanting to get high is the path to hell
wanting to get drunk is the path to hell

what is missing from this moment
i want a massage
wanting a massage is the path to hell

i want my cats to be immortal
wanting my cats to be immortal is the path to hell
i want my body to be immortal
wanting my body to be immortal is the path to hell
i want to feel good
wanting to feel good is the path to hell
i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell
it implies you don't feel good now,
thus creating it

i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

i want to sympathy
wanting sympathy is the path to hell

i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

i want to want to feel gratitude
wanting to want to feel gratitude is the path to hell

i want it to storm
wanting it to storm is the path to hell

i want to be loved and adored
wanting to be loved and adored is the path to hell

i want to not be annoyed
wanting to not be annoyed is the path to hell

i want to be served
wanting to be served is the path to hell

what is missing from this moment?
i want more new music

wanting more new music is the path to hell

what is missing from this moment?
euphoria, bliss

wanting euphoria and bliss is the path to hell
what the fuck
why can't i want euphoria and bliss
that's what i came to this fucking life for

wanting euphoria and bliss is the path to hell
wanting euphoria and bliss is the path to hell

i want to take care of myself better
wanting to take care of myself better is the path to hell

i want to make my best work
wanting to make my best work is the path to hell
i want to like myself
wanting to like myself is the path to hell

i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

i want to like myself
wanting to like myself is the path to hell

i want a treadmill desk
wanting a treadmill desk is the path to hell

i want to be less mad
wanting to be less mad is the path to hell

i want to stop projecting myself into the future
wanting to stop projecting yourself into the future is the path to hell

I WANT TO LIKE MYSELF
wanting to like yourself is the path to hell

I want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

What is missing from this moment?

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so angry at myself
so angry for ALWAYS doing it to myself
i always do this
i always do this
i hate myself

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i want to not hate myself!
wanting to not hate yourself is the path to hell
I JUST WANT A DRINK AND TO STOP WONDERING
wanting a drink is the path to hell
i want to feel better
wanting to feel better is the path to hell

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what to even say
i want to be grateful
wanting to be grateful is the path to hell

grateful for
this home
and water
and wife
and kitties
and health
and friends
and family
and city
and breath

i am grateful the rent and bills are paid
i am grateful for osho
i am grateful I know i will feel better one day
i am grateful i know i will make music one day

i am grateful i know there is an answer
i am grateful for the filing cabinet
i am grateful i can help a little bit

i am grateful i can feel a crack into feeling better
i am grateful for massages
i am grateful i know i can feel a little better
i am grateful i have things i can do
i can play music
i can hoop
i can record a video
i can ask for a hug
i can draw
i can let those thoughts go
i can let those thoughts go
it's hard
i want it to be easy
wanting it to be easy is the path to hell
wanting it to be different is the path to hell

i am open
i am open
i am open to receiving
i am open to changing

i am open to feeling better
i am opening to getting off the path to fucking dumbass hell

i am opening up to receiving
i am open to feeling better in this moment
i am open to feeling better
i am open to the possibility that everything i need is in this moment.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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