Play in the dirt see what comes up

Jessica Mullen

Play in the dirt see what comes up

Jessica Mullen
You must work harder to get more money.
How is this belief not serving me?

The only correlations I have found between doing MORE and more money are these:

When I focus MORE, more money seems to flow. When I focus on one thing, for example, my court paperwork, money seems to flow in the background.

When I focus on actively trying to NOT get money, more seems to flow.




When I try to do things to get money, like seek clients or run promos on a website, it seems to push money away. Furthermore, when I do things JUST for the money, like take on a job for a little extra cash, I tend to resent it and push the money away.

I know that the correlation between working hard and getting more money is not one of physical labor, but emotional. When I work harder at FEELING GOOD, more money flows. When I take my court case by the reins and face it head on, money flows. When I focus on feeling good about myself, money flows. When I love myself, money flows. When I feel good, it flows. The more I let go of worrying and STRIVING, the more it flows.

I KNOW that my mood is my work. The harder I work at THAT job, the more money flows. I still have background thoughts that checking things off my to-do list are my work, but I know in my heart that when I feel great, my to-do list does itself.

There are a few things I can do to feel great that I am avoiding... watching less tv... snacking less... exercising more...

But ideally I would fill that time at night with something I really WANT to do, rather than depriving me of my "relaxation" time.

I don't know what those things are. Reading is ok... Reading would be nice. Art is a little too active. I like it when I write at night. I like it when I socialize at night. I like it when I meditate at night.

I like it when I flow... but that's a little too active... I like journaling...

Reading, journaling. Those things would be better than tv and snacking.
But they sound so boring. I want to really CARE about how I feel. I want to really care about feeling good more.

I want to be better at choosing in the moment the better-for-me thing. The story of my life really. At least I'm not drinking.

This is just making me feel bad about myself, because I don't see myself NOT watching tv at least a few nights a week. I hate beating myself up for indulging. Story of my life.

I am asking the universe to fill in my nights with something better than tv, please. I don't know what that is, but I'd love to get in the habit. I'd love to find something I'd rather do than watch tv. I watch my mood dip... and then I go to bed disgusted with myself.

Disgust. I want to not be disgusted with myself. I want to go to bed attracted to myself. Go to bed loving myself.

Oh one thing could be to watch Abe youtube videos. That's a good tv transition. And I could draw while we do that. That's a good sub.




I want more focus. I want to focus on feeling good. I know my mood is my work. I know everything reflects my mood. I know my mood is my work. And any time I am overwhelmed with my to-do list or concerned about money, I should focus on my mood.

What are the things I can do to boost my mood?
Write.
Read an uplifting book.
Hoop/AJ/dance.
Work out.
Walk.
Draw.

Really moving my body is #1. More physical activity.
Less filling my body with substances.
Somehow.

My mood is my work. My mood is my work. I want to find more things to FILL my life with, rather than trying to take things away. I'm so tired of trying to restrict and control and remove.

Today I am looking for ways to feel good. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work. I know my mood is my work.

What I want is to just be able to think "I love myself" and for things to smooth out. I want that thought to be that powerful.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

I've been having this eye allergy, and Louise Hay says to use this mantra for eye problems:
"I now create the life I love to look at."

I can see how I've been beating myself up for creating a life that's hard to look at.

I Now Create The Life I Love to Look At!
Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing iN I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

BREATHING in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I love myself!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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