let it out it burns i have to let it out
i can transcend
i can transcend i can let it go
i can transmute the energy into power
i have the power to do whatever i want
finally i see
i see
i am awake
it is working
i asked for this
it won't always be like this
have patience
i always wanted to meet someone with more patience than me
just kidding a lot of people do
or do they
my favorite perspective is both

i am a teenager still in english class scribbling in a little notebook i got from the grocery store

i feel so much and i know there's a way to get it out but i'm not sure where to begin
i'm not sure
and so i switch my perspective to a clear strong signal
right now
i choose a clear strong signal
i choose a clear strong signal
i let go of those thoughts about other people

i release my attachment to outcome.
i release my investment i release it all
i choose to be here now, where it's not always going to be like this

it's not always going to be like this.
it won't always be like this.
it's not always going to be this way.

sorry i'm guarded
sorry i closed

trying to remember to be open

sorry to judge myself
i love myself

sorry i closed
i am remembering to be open

sorry i'm cold
it keeps me awake

gotta laugh at myself on this one
just on time
the
fall
rush

i am just letting the flow through me
my new goal is to not be so pretentious!

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i know exactly what i'm doing
i know i'm in the right place at the right time
i know i'm doing everything right
i stopped watching the weather

i trust the process of life i am done second guessing what i do what i say
i am at peace with what is i am choosing to focus my attention!

i am choosing to publish this stream of consciousness writing for anyone to read and why?
for the built in second perspective

i'm on fire i'm on fire
i'm burning
it's october
right on time

i am waking up
opening
back up

sorry i closed

i am open
i am open
i am open
it's not always going to be like this
everything is perfect and in its place.

back to reality
the second perspective can really put a stop to things too
why write in public
why
write
in
pubic

because it holds me to a higher standard
it opens me up
humbles me
if i didn't do this
i wouldn't be in the habit of writing

it's easy to write because i write
i love to write

i guess the reason to have those structured posts is because i run out of things to say!

so high.

ok anyway.

this is

i am letting the flow through me
i am exactly where i need to be
i am open to the flow flowing through me
i can channel
i am a channel
i am a bridge
i am a channel
i am one with life
i am one with life

i am choosing what to focus on i am choosing to feel good and be present
i am choosing a new life right now
in this moment i choose a new life
i am clean new fresh again
right here right now

right now i am choosing to be light and open up i am choosing to lighten up
i am choosing to relax and be here now

get your mind

go get your mind she's drunk

i am choosing to transmute the energy
i allow the energy to rise
flow up and out
connecting me to the great big ghost in the sky

i am once again connected
i am once again in the flow
i am now in the flow

scattered
but it doesn't have to be that way
it won't always be this way!
listen to my playlist

it hurts to be open sometimes
like stretching open a piercing
gauging out your ears
open up!
open up!
it won't always be like this.
open up!

open up and it's halloween and this is the time!
it is time to go out and feel adventure on the skin and it's dark in the trees and you might fall in some mud but it will be so funny

life can get deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol

life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol

there's a dark part!
it's a big part!
and there's the light part.
i have both.
i see both.
always wanting to catch a plane
knowing i'll feel the same!

let's have fun is all i say
lighten up and

edit away!