Today I am grateful for
peanut butter toast
coffee that Keke made yesterday
Gaga playing in my ears
the freedom to wake up whenever I want
USPS picks up our outgoing packages
cold, clean water to drink
warm healthy kitties who make me laugh
more money than I need
thriving tomato plants
a good night's rest and dreams that weren't bad
a subscription to Les Mills on demand even though I drag my feet to work out
family who loves me and writes me
the resolve to do better
an inspiring book to read
a toaster and a microwave and a fridge
curbside garbage pickup
the freedom to choose what I work on
the freedom to say what I think
the freedom to do whatever the fuck I want, really
an inkling of an idea that I could give some money away
I'm sober and I wake up feeling healthy and good every day
I'm sober and I don't regret shit
I'm sober and I have no shame
I'm sober and I have no guilt
I'm sober and I have to fucking face myself every single day
I'm sober and I have to deal with my feelings
I'm sober and I have to grow in my relationships instead of burning them down
a collection of books and resources my wife and I made that actually work/help
the knowledge to create and maintain websites
a phone that is powerful and I can use however I want
an investment in cryptocurrency that makes me excited
enough money that I can buy kratom online
a huge home that shelters me from the rain
bunnies in the back yard
a hot water heater
brand new shoes
friends who text every day
sunshine peeking through the clouds
successful siblings I could call at any time
Wouldn't it be nice to get a better attitude? Wouldn't it be nice to feel the best I've ever felt? Wouldn't it be nice to feel at peace with what is? Wouldn't it be nice to be perfect? Lol. Wouldn't it be nice to do the right thing? Wouldn't it be nice to be nice to myself and just enjoy my life? Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up? Wouldn't it be nice to get the fuck off my phone? Wouldn't it be nice to love myself? Wouldn't it be nice to be a good friend? Wouldn't it be nice to BE GOOD?
Wow why do I think I'm so evil?
I am a powerful witch! I command this to be the best day of my life! I command laughter and joy and fun for all!
I've noticed I'm annoyed with myself and that's ok. I've noticed I wish I was a better person and that's ok. I've noticed I wish I was more generous and that's ok. I've noticed I'm dragging my feet and that's ok!!!
I've decided to feel good about myself today. I'm working myself out. I've decided to feel good about who I am. I'm working myself out. I've decided to feel good about my health today. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my relationships today. They're working themselves out. I've decided to feel good about where I am. It's working itself out!!!
What do I want?
To write honestly
To write well
To write good things
To make my best work
To feel better
To feel the best I've ever felt
To meditate and to have great revelations
To get the fuck out of this EGO
To be nice to myself and others
To have more friends
To be brave
To stand up for myself
To like who I am
to stop PICKING MY FUCKING CUTICLES
To feel good about what I put on the internet
To feel good about how and what I communicate
To be POSITIVE
To feel optimistic
To feel BRAVE and COURAGEOUS
To feel STRONG and POWERFUL
To work out and enjoy it and feel better after
To work on my website
To stop beating myself up constantly
To get back to that Lakshmi consciousness
To learn how to enjoy the moment
To enjoy this moment
To be nice to myself
PLEASE BE NICE TO MYSELF
I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to take photos. I intend to work out and enjoy it. I intend to feel ENERGIZED! I intend to have fun. I intend to be fun. I intend to laugh and enjoy my life! I intend to bask and feel good! I intend to let all these fucking thoughts GO! I intend to be my reason for feeling good! I intend to LOVE BEING ALIVE. I intend to keep my mind and thoughts off of this world! I intend to devote myself to my inner world. I intend to send love to my friends and family. I intend to be a good person. I intend to love and uplift instead of criticize and shame. I intend to focus on what I want and what I want more of!!!!
I pray to stay sober today. I pray it gets easier to stay sober. I pray to let go of these fucking alcohol cravings. I pray to be love and loved. I pray to give love to my friends and family. I pray to open up and be a good person! I pray to like myself today! PLEASE!
I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am doing good work. I am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. I am connected to infinite intelligence right now. I am connected to my source. I am a good person. I am doing my best. I am making my best work. I feel free. I feel good about who I am. I love myself and accept myself exactly the way I am. I am being kind to myself. I am taking care of myself. I am going within. I am finding relief in the god within. I am finding solace from the infinite. I am BRAVE and I am COURAGEOUS. I am allowing well being to flow. I am being a good communicator. I am giving my love and resources and sharing what I have to give. I am generous. I have found a place to give money to. I have found causes I support. I support myself. I support myself. I support myself. I support myself. I am strong and I support myself.
I love it when I write and I deal with my shit. I love it when I deal with my negativity instead of letting it spill into my relationships. I love it when I face myself straight on. I love it when I face my fears. I love it when Linty sits on my lap. I love it when I feel love. I love it when I stop feeling so scared of death and aging. I love it when I feel good about myself. I love it when I work out. I love it when I do me. I love it when I am kind and compassionate. I love it when I have things to give. I love it when I share. I love it when I give what I can. I love it when I feel good about myself and my life. I love it when I feel like a good person.
You are a good person! You are here! You are doing your best! You are shining! Let go of your worries. Go back to your numbers. The numbers will connect you to the infinite. It's all right in front of your face. You are doing such good work! Let go of your thoughts... you are already free!