Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding, and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited.
"Money is not my supply." Check.
"No person, place or condition is my supply." Check. (I frequently set the intention "to be my reason for feeling good.")
"My awareness, understanding, and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply." Oh yeah... The consciousness of consciousness is the thing I'm aiming for. I remember this one time I managed to watch my thoughts, after reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I went to bed excited to watch my thoughts. I hadn't tried to feel that feeling since that day... the "excitement" of watching my thoughts faded quickly as I became identified with my thoughts again.
So today during this meditation I said to myself, "What's my next thought?" And I waited there. At first, it was hard to see them. I got overwhelmed and it was like a fuzzy white sheet of thought. But then I started to notice that in my mind's eye the thoughts existed in a sort of grid. Thoughts about Kelly happened close to the back of my head. A vague memory of a child's birthday party popped up far to the front left. Some thoughts appeared to be coming from beneath the grid.
I sat back to watch the thoughts go by in this grid. It got really interesting to just see what popped up, and where. I started feeling like a movie character. It became enjoyable to watch the thoughts of a character. It was a good story.
I just kept imagining myself (my Self, rather) sitting at the very back of my head/awareness, and then saying "What's my next thought?" Everything popped up in the grid, or could be sensed as behind me/my field of vision.
I love this as a meditation but how can this practice translate to daily life? It's hard to be still enough to ask and perceive, "What's my next thought?"