The filling was a success. I love having my mouth worked on. I love getting body mods. I love that going to the dentist is kind of like getting a tattoo or a piercing. God I love tattoos and piercings. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Listening to Nine Inch Nails and I can hear Kelly's Soundcloud playing on her phone in the other room. She's cleaning up the bathroom so we can prime the ceiling before the new tub and toilet are installed.
SO happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful for natural medicine! So happy and grateful for dental medicine! So happy and grateful to feel good about myself today! So happy and grateful to feel better and better every day. So happy and grateful I can relax. So happy and grateful I can choose to be the creator.
BReathe in and let the flow through you
Breathe out and enjoy the music
Breathe in and stop distracting yourself
BReathe out and remember how good you felt about yourself when you first listened to this music
Breathe in and enjoy where you are
BReathe out and enjoy who you are
You're a star. You're a natural organic star. You can trust the process. You can let life take care of all the details. YOU'RE A STAR. Relax and let yourself shine!
Breathe in and shine!
Breathe out and relax your body
Let the flow through you. Let the flow lead the way. Remember the email from TUT this morning:
"Jessica, it is easy. Just once a day, imagine the life you dream of. Believe that it can be yours in this world of magic and miracles. Choose to live as if you know of its inevitable manifestation. Don't compromise. Don't worry. Don't look for results. And as surely as spirit crafts one moment after another, so too will it fuse together the life you now lead with the life of your dreams as if they were two pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, destined to become one.
This alone determines what's 'meant to be.'
Remember who you are. What is the life you dream of?
To be a star.
To feel good and strong and powerful every waking moment
To feel like morphine and addy whenever I want
To be recognized for my awesome powers of allowing
To be asked, to be interviewed, to be marveled at, to be asked, "How do you do it?"
To remember that deep well of peace I'll be speaking from
It's hard to think of what I want in the future because I have so much of what I want right now.
Freedom, time, and resources to make my art: check.
What more can I ask for?
But in the life I dream of, I get more compliments. I'm recognized on the street. Why do I want to be famous? Just because I want money so I can prove to my parents I can take care of myself and make money without taking their advice?
In the life I dream of, I count to 10,000 every day. Or perhaps I've transcended counting and have the presence of mind to just breathe. Dream bigger! In the life I dream of, I have immaculate mental discipline. I have transcended thought.
In the life I dream of, I am free of anxiety and greet each moment with joy.
In the life I dream of, I spend a little more time weightlifting... but fitness is a lifelong journey and I
trust know that is coming.
In the life I dream of, I am a successful artist...
But I hear my mind whisper, "not too successful, or you'll lose your artistic integrity..."
In the life I dream of, I am a gracefully successful artist with integrity.
In the life I dream of, I surrender totally and completely like Michael Singer. Success comes to me. Success comes to me. Success comes to me
In the life I dream of, I channel Bruce Lee and Nicki Minaj and Bashar.
In the life I dream of, I see through the veil naturally, continuously, effortlessly. I share what I see and bring peace to those who are still opening their eyes.
In the life I dream of, I am kind and generous and compassionate for all of life. I let the bugs live and I figure out how to behave with love around panhandlers.
In the life I dream of, I am witness consciousness.
In the life I dream of, I am known for my love and for my highlighting of the rainbows. Just look at those rainbows! Look at those animals! Look at the love! Love actually is all around!!
In the life I dream of, I embrace death and I am fearless. I trust where I am. I trust where I am going. I trust it's all in my best interest. I am the witness, how could i fear?
In the life I dream of, I laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh...
In the life I dream of, I express my appreciation and my love and my creativity and my JOY and my ENTHUSIASM!
In the life I dream of, I transmute my contrast into the most glorious art this life has ever seen!
In the life I dream of, I am magickal in my abilities to transmute contrast! I look forward to contrast! I welcome contrast!
In the life I dream of, I actually practice hooping every day.
In the life I dream of, I shatter meditation paradigms. I shatter my own paradigms. I lift myself up. I am free.
In the life I dream of, I am invited, celebrated, adored. Fun, laughing, focused. The witness, which I just accidentally typed as "Titness" Her titness.
In the life I dream of, I am making my best work every day and I am filled with joy and laughter and love and delight and enthusiasm and a deep love of the dark.
In the life I dream of, I am already here!