Watching Light Observing Free

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Watching Light Observing Free

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I get to choose what I focus on, and here I am. I want to dwell on the negative. I want to feel sorry for myself and self destruct. I want to stop thinking, because I'm reading this buddhism book that I suspect is making me feel worse.

It's absurd that I would even focus on this
Who cares

All I care about is getting my nails done
and taking care of my cats
and one day not drinking
and one day turning my life around

i've noticed i'm judging myself and that's ok
i've noticed i don't feel very good and that's ok
i've noticed i'm distracted and that's ok
i've noticed i am feeling lazy and that's ok
i've noticed i feel confused and that's ok
i've noticed i'm feeling scared and that's ok
i've noticed i'm not liking myself very much and that's ok
i've noticed i feel terrible for not making more work and that's ok
i've noticed i am dwelling on what i'm doing wrong and that's ok
i've noticed i am judging other people and that's ok
i've noticed i am not minding my own business and that's ok
i've noticed i am feeling annoyed and irritated and that's ok
i've noticed i am judging myself and that is ok
i've noticed i am so scared and just want someone to make it better and that's ok
i've noticed i am feeling uneasy and that's ok
i've noticed i am feeling heavy and that's ok
i've noticed i am not who i want to be and that's ok
who do you want to be?

performer. light. love. joy. successful. providing for myself.
i just want to like myself

jessica i love and accept you exactly the way you are
jessica i love and accept you exactly the way you are
jessica i love and accept you exactly the way you are
jessica i love and accept you exactly the way you are

i've noticed i'm mad at others and that's ok
i've noticed i am identified with my thoughts and that's ok

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

BUT WHAT IS THE SOLUTION

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

WHERE IS MY BREAKTHROUGH

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

I WANT TO BE GOOD
I WANT TO MAKE GOOD THINGS
I WANT PEOPLE TO LIKE ME

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want to be pet

I am watching my thoughts
I am observing my thoughts

I CAN BE PRESENT

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

she is so beautiful

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i feel broken and dirty and failed

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am happy to be writing

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i don't know what to do

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i CAN WATCH I CAN DO IT I CAN ZOOM OUT

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

so distracted

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want to break free i want change

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want to do something radical i am so mad i am not being a brilliant artist

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i love her so much

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

remember to breathe

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

do i even still believe

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i lost my train of thought
i drink too much

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i don't want to write poetry because i don't want to look

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i can be here now

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

right now is pleasant
right now is good
right now i am writing poetry
right now i am feeling better

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i love cats

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

my attachment drives me crazy

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want money

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i just want to love

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i love tommy dorsey

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i feel like a leaf in the wind
with no answer
no say
no opinion
only aversion

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i can breakthrough
i can believe in myself
i have before
i can do it
i can believe in myself

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i just want to want to work
i want to want to be great
i want to want to make great things
i want to be able to see if i am making great things now

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

as they arise
where are they coming from
they feel so familiar
i want money
i want change
i feel stuck
i feel stuck in the mud
getting older
stuck in the mud

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

all i want is solutions
please please give me solutions
i just want solutions
i want to be the solution

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am looking inside
i am looking inside
i am watching my thoughts go by
if you're irritated by every rub how can you ever polish your mirror

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

please don't leave me
please just love me

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts
i can detach

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i can detach
i can detach
i can detach

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

ego thought about how cool i am for my tastes in music

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want to feel good about myself

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

how can i feel good when i don't have the thing i want

"Sustained thinking is creating! Choose what you give your attention and mind to, because as you give your attention and mind to something, no matter what it is, you are summoning it into your life." -- the secret widget

I am watching my thoughts
I am observing my thoughts

should i be choosing my thoughts or just watching them arise?
how can i remember to turn the boat
to change my focus?
why does it seem so hard??

i've decided to feel good about that, it's working itself out!

I've decided to feel good about that! It's working itself out!
I've decided to feel good about that! It's working itself out!

i'm watching my thoughts
i'm observing my thoughts

how can i be here now

i'm watching my thoughts
i'm observing my thoughts

everything is ok right now

i am watching my thoughts i am observing my thoughts

how can i ever be free

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want a jolt of approval
so i'm watching my sick thoughts
what the fuck next?

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

what comes after observing my thoughts??
when do i get my prize??
where's my stuff?

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i'm supposed to meditate on love when i get scared
what if i meditate on vodka instead?????

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i don't give a fuck

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

am i good person
i am a good person
what is a good person

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

just keep creating

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i want to make something
please tell me what to make
please tell me what to make
please tell me how to finish my project
please tell me the solution
please tell me not to worry about paying the rent in january
please tell me not to worry how i'm going to feed my cats
please tell me not to worry about money

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts
i am watching my thoughts
i am observing myself

was i breathing
am i doing this right
am i doing anything right

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i can still choose nice thoughts
even if i don't believe

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

conjure, nice thought!
i love myself
i love myself
i love myself
i love myself
jessica i love and accept you exactly the way you are
everything is perfect and in its place
let's have fun
we can be light
come on this is fun!
lighten up jessica! this is just for fun!

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i am destroying myself

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

lighten up it's just for fun! who cares!
you can detach
you can be light
you can be free
just switch your perspective you don't have to change a thing

I AM LIGHT AND I AM FREE
I AM LIGHT AND I AM FREE
I AM LIGHT AND I AM FREE

i've decided to feel good about all that. it's working itself out

i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

i love myself
i am light and free
i am the creator
i am the creator
i am the creator
i am the creator

it starts right NOW

i am light and i am free
i am light and i am free
i am light and i am free
i am already free

i am light and i am free
i am here now
i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts
i am watching my thoughts
i am observing my thoughts

everything is going to be ok
take your own advice
listen to your own advice.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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