Egoic Pursuit of Egolessness

Gathering Momentum

Egoic Pursuit of Egolessness

Cam
Grateful to be awake and alive. Grateful for this now. Grateful to not have anything on my "to not give a fuck about" list yet. Grateful for pop music. Grateful we've been working on our project! Grateful to wake up feeling good. Grateful for my wife. Grateful for vivid dreams. Grateful for my grandparents. Grateful for my family and friends. Grateful for my health. Grateful for my home. Grateful for Austin. Grateful for my kitties. Grateful for my gym membership. Grateful for money in the bank. Grateful for coconut oil and coffee and spinach smoothies. Grateful for clean sheets. Grateful for cute blankets. Grateful for rituals. Grateful for my strength. Grateful to be here now. Grateful to be reading about Buddhism. Grateful for new ideas. Grateful for uc. Grateful for new ideas. Grateful to let go. Grateful I can surrender. Grateful for my office. Grateful I don't have to give a fuck. Grateful for my computer and phone and microphone and internet. Grateful for my education. Grateful for my writing practice. Grateful to feel good now. Grateful for the warm front. Grateful to feel good about life. Grateful I don't have to give a fuck. Grateful I can let go and let it be easy. Grateful for fun plans. Grateful I can choose to be at peace with what is. Grateful for Thich Nhat Hanh and Wayne Dyer and Abraham Hicks. Grateful for Alan Watts. Grateful for teachers. Grateful for people who watch my videos. Grateful to like myself. Grateful to feel practiced. Grateful for the library. Grateful life already is the way I want it to be.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to redraw that daily page? Wouldn't it be nice to surrender? Wouldn't it be nice to breathe consciously and not give a fuck? Wouldn't it be nice to just be here now? Wouldn't it be nice to hoop? Wouldn't it be nice to work on our project for several hours? Wouldn't it be nice to meet the flow machine half way? Wouldn't it be nice to be my reason for feeling good? Wouldn't it be nice to jump on a big trampoline? Wouldn't it be nice to walk on a tightrope? Wouldn't it be nice to fly? Wouldn't it be nice to clean? Wouldn't it be nice to get rid of some stuff? Wouldn't it be nice to order that glass? Wouldn't it be nice to get another bottle of highest potential? Wouldn't it be nice to make some videos? Wouldn't it be nice to catch up on TPP and JS posts? Wouldn't it be nice to feel "in demand"? Wouldn't it be nice to be asked to make things? Wouldn't it be nice to be asked to write for a site or magazine? Wouldn't it be nice to feel popular? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process? WOuldn't it be nice to be ok with living in obscurity? Wouldn't it be nice to feel oneness? Wouldn't it be nice to MAKE ART LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER?

What do you want?
TO MAKE MY ART
TO EXPERIENCE RADICAL NONSEPARATION
To feel agile and light and physically euphoric, ecstatic in/with my body
To be here now
To practice my only craft, presence

I am switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I don't give a fuck. In the reality I prefer, I already am the best. I already feel confident. I am generous and kind but have STANDARDS and take care of myself and am able to say no. I don't give a fuck! I do what I want. I listen to my inner guidance, I do things for me. I am my reason for feeling good. I already am the person I want to be. I already have what I want. I already am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. Life is living me. My PATH IS LIGHTING UP BEFORE ME! I am sober and alert and aware and awake and present and here now. I am awake in the dream. I am allowing well being to flow. I am one with life. I am taking care of myself. I am in control of my vibration. I am doing ME. I am letting life be easy. I am making my best work, right now. I am writing my best work, right now. I am letting life take care of me. I am suckling at the teat of the great mother. I am a guest in this world. I am letting go. I SURRENDER. I am letting go of everything that isn't right now.

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I feel aligned. I love it when I smell like sacred frankincense. I love it when I feel good about myself. I love it when I breathe consciously. I love it when I get to have fun playing video games. I love it when I take care of myself. I love it when I have fun. I love it when I am fun. I love it when I let go of my thoughts and return to who I really am. I love it when I let life be fun and easy. I love it when I lighten up. I love it when I'm quoted. I love it when I feel important. I love it when I feel smart. I love it when I let go of my ego. I love it when acknowledge my selfish emotions without judgement. I love it when I find new music to love. I love it when I read books. I love it when I stay off my phone.

Today I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to focus. I intend to let it come to me. I intend to be happy with what I have. I intend to let life live me. I intend to celebrate. I intend to express my gratitude. I intend to stay conscious. I intend to breathe consciously. I intend to eat consciously. I intend to live by natural law. I intend to trust the process. I intend to go with the flow. I intend to open my mind and open up to receiving. I intend to accept gifts and take no action. I intend to suckle at the teat of the great mother. I intend to thank god for everything. I intend to create and love and care for others. I intend to serve. I intend to give. I intend to project love. I intend to laugh and play and have fun and feel euphoric!

I intend to be a magnet of well being and abundance. I intend to appreciate all that I have, right now, right here. I intend to feel FREE! I intend to trip without drugs. I intend to LOVE MY LIFE!

Dear Jessica,
Relax and let it come. You've practiced the feeling, allow it to be yours. You've decided to feel good about that, it's working itself out!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
youjizz