Dear Diary

Gathering Momentum

Dear Diary

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Grateful to be awake and alive! Grateful for my wonderful friends, for a perfect weekend from start to finish. On Friday Kelly and I went to work out downtown and had 3 fantastic classes--Body Combat, Body Pump and CX. After we had lunch at Lavaca St Grill and then biked home in the 99º weather--last week it was 102º. We stopped at Wahoo's on Congress for a frozen sharkarita before completing the last mile of our journey. What a lifesaver. As soon as we got home our friends Ryan and Fedé got here, with Beat Box and vodka in tow. We jetted off to Barton Springs and swam with the fishes. Ryan dropped us off so he could pick up his sister and her boyfriend from the airport. We came home and let the games begin. Ryan came back with his crew and Kelly poured the drinks. We had an art party (I make people draw on postcard sized card stock to fill our walls for the semi-annual Rave Cave gallery show) and Kelly made pasta with alfredo sauce and broccoli. And garlic bread. We drank to our hearts content. Our beautiful friend Jenny came by. We were going to go to the clerb but got sidetracked by a new friend we met in the parking lot. Instead we retired to the pool to talk to topless girls and boys from Australia/Wisconsin, we're still unsure. Before I knew it, it was 6am and I took my ass to bed. After a little bedtime story from Ryan.

The next morning Ryan left to have lunch with his sister and Kelly, Fedé and I slept on. We eventually got ourselves out of bed to walk to McDonalds on Soco. A very refreshing double quarter pounder later, Ryan came and picked us up so we could change to go to Barton Springs again. Time to show his sister! His sister's boyfriend drove and we all had a nice swim. We got to see some funny drama and witness cops being nice. Then we ate at Doc's Backyard while the game blared outside. Our next stop was Mt. Bonnel, the highest point in Austin. Fedé wore his burqa. Ryan then took Kelly and me home, and the rest went to their hotel up north. Kelly and I did our chores and went to bed early.

This morning Ryan asked us if we wanted to hang out and go shopping, yes! So Ryan and Fedé came over while we made our smoothie and coffee. We did some School of Life Design worksheets then headed out to swim at our friend's pool. We played with a ferret, swam, drank wine and mango-rita bud light malt liquor things (v good), then headed to McDonald's. Finally, Ryan took us to Walmart to make another pitstop at Mcdonald's and buy laundry detergent and a cookie cake. They dropped us off a couple hours ago and I already miss them. Luckily we get to see them next weekend too.

And that is what I am grateful for--the perfect weekend with the perfect friends.

Wouldn't it be nice to wake up feeling good? Wouldn't it be nice to work on worksheets? Wouldn't it be nice to sleep well? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day ever tomorrow? Wouldn't it be nice to have good dreams? Wouldn't it be nice to reset the Internet? Wouldn't it be nice to have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to do my simran more and more? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best week ever? Wouldn't it be nice to run a lot this week? Wouldn't it be nice to let go? Wouldn't it be nice to relax and be nice to myself? Wouldn't it be nice to feel connected and loved and magickal?

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, everything is working out for me. I am at peace with what is. I don't give a fuck. I love and accept myself exactly the way I am. I am so happy with what I have. I approve of myself. I am at ease. I am in the flow. I am letting life be fun and easy. I am letting myself feel good. I am letting myself feel at ease. I am trusting the process. I am celebrating the now. I am here now. I am present. I am practiced. I am free. I am letting life be fun and easy. I am trusting the flow. I am letting it be fun. I don't give a fuck! I am allowing well being to flow. I trust the process of life. I am letting life be easy. I am letting life live me. I am awake. I am conscious. I love and accept myself exactly the way I am.

What do you want?
To wake up feeling good.
To be nice to myself more.
To love and accept myself exactly the way I am. To practice feeling loved and accepted.

I intend to have the best week of my life. I intend to be generous and kind. I intend to use my magick. I intend to remember I live the magick life. I intend to be fun and confident and in control of my vibration.

I love it wheN I write. I love it when I do the work. I love it when I can day drink without destroying things. I love it when I take care of myself. I love it when we get to see Karen. I love it when life makes sense. i Love it when I practice self love. I love it when all my ducks are in a row. I love it when there's a fresh air filter and cat litter. I love it when I get to see my friends. I love it when I appreciate my work. I love it when I get to give. I love it when I let go!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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