I Am God Now

I Am God Now

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Without a formula to fall back on, what do I write? It used to be:

  • I am so grateful...
  • Wouldn't it be nice?
  • I'm switching to the reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer...
  • I love it when...
  • What do you want?
  • Dear Jessica...

Today I feel better than I've ever felt before. We have exactly enough money to pay our bills this month. I've craved this feeling for years and years and years. I've always wanted to be hungry! I've always wanted a reason to really focus. They say inherited money is the worst thing you can do to someone, takes away her drive. Makes her unable to take care of herself. Well, this month I'm learning how to take care of myself.

I love taking gifts from my parents, but in the past it has made me lazy. Why not just use this money while I can? Then I can relax and enjoy life. #thestruggle

I am allowing the flow through me. I am allowing myself to be transparent and open. I am allowing myself to look within. I am allowing myself to be fearless in my inner reflection. I am allowing myself to expose myself in public. I am allowing myself to share my story. I am allowing myself to do whatever I want. Create whatever I want. Be whoever I want.

I am allowing myself to be open to receiving. I am allowing myself to believe life can be easy. I am allowing myself to believe that life will take care of me like it does the birds in the sky.

I am so grateful to feel like I have nothing to lose. I am so grateful to feel hungry. I am so grateful to feel excited about taking care of myself. I am so excited to have a reason to jump in the flow. I am so grateful I can feel myself learning to fly.

I love it when my writing comes naturally. I love it when I feel the flow in my writing. I love it when writing feels like doing a puzzle. I love it when I don't think about my writing and it just comes.

I love it when I appreciate my process. I love it when I do the work to feel good. I love it when I feel like I have something to say. I love it when I'm scared to hit "publish". I love it when I stop caring what other people think of me. I love it when I feel confident about my writing and my work and my SELF.

I love it when my absolute favorite song in the world comes on.




I love it when I let things come naturally. I love it when I let my work flow. I love it when I trust that it's going to work out. I love it when I have brilliant ideas and trust that they'll be executed some time.

I love it when I believe in myself. I love it when I feel on my tip toes like a fighter, ready for anything. I love it when I'm ready.

I'm ready.

I'm ready to face myself. I'm ready to be who I really am. I'm ready to get off the roller coaster. I'm ready to shine. I'm ready to put myself out there, to create opportunities for myself. I'm ready to do something different.

I'm ready to appreciate my life the way it is. I'm ready to appreciate all the things I don't "like". I'm ready to have the best day of my life. I'm ready to be here now. I'm ready to succeed. I'm ready to not care. I'm ready to be god.




The fear I have been choking back the past few months has dissipated. I'm ready to jump and trust I'll catch myself. I'm so excited to be taking risks.

I am on top of the world. I am switching it up. I am confident. I am doing the work. I am choosing to feel the way I want to feel! I am off the roller coaster of letting other things determine how I feel. How I feel is not determined by money health or love. How I feel is determined by ME.




I am ready to release my resistant thoughts. I am ready to be present. I have all the tools I need. When something pulls me out of the now and starts affecting how I feel, I say, "Get off the roller coaster." Don't let something outside of you affect you, ESPECIALLY if it's a good thing. I have to be willing to let those euphoric highs go if I want to get rid of the crippling lows.

And when I'm not pulling myself off the roller coaster, I'm here, right now, breathing.

Breathe in and be god!
Breathe out and be god!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and be god!
Breathe out and be god!

There is only right now, I can only be happy today! I am getting of the roller coaster of, "When I have enough money, I'll be happy." "When I'm skinnier, I'll be happy." "When my work is better, I'll be happy."

I can only be happy now, and there's not a damn thing in the world I can do to have enough money, be skinner, or make better work. I can only be myself right now. I can only love myself how I am right now. I can only make my work now and not judge it. I can only love and thank my body right now. I can only appreciate the money I have right now, the fact that I can pay my bills.

I am allowing myself to be present, off the roller coaster of the mind. I am allowing myself to have the best day of my life. I am allowing myself to make ANY work, regardless of how "good" it is. I am here now. I am god now.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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