Dear Jessica,
You're just tripping. Just relax. Tonight is a gift. You don't have to stress. Go inside. Go within. Go to your center and breathe and sit up straight.

I just want to have fun!!!!!!

Dear Jessica,
Relax.
You're ok. You're safe right now. You're safe right now. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. Just relax. It's ok. You're ok. There's nothing to worry about or fear. Just relax and breathe. Let it come to you.

Let WHAT come?! What the fuck is coming!?

Whatever you want. Just practice the feeling of what you want.

It's SO HARD. IT HURTS

What do you want.

To be relaxed and have fun.

Then allow it to come.