Grateful to be here, making the choice to feel good. Grateful it's up to me. Grateful to be living my life the way I want to be living it. Grateful to know more of what I want every day. Grateful for contrast that helps me know. Grateful for contrast that teaches me. Grateful for contrast that helps me feel higher highs. Grateful for contrast that helps carve out new adventures. Grateful for contrast that makes me release resistance.
Grateful to be learning to trust. Grateful to be learning how to be nice to myself. Grateful to say yes. Grateful to take naps. Grateful to be a person who's never going to get it done.
Grateful to keep up the good work.
Relax, and allow. Be easy on yourself. It's ok, wherever you are, however you feel, whatever you want, it's ok. Everything is ok. Choose to feel good. Choose to feel good. Choose to feel good. Choose to feel good. Choose to feel good. It's just a choice. Just choose to feel good. Choose to feel good.
Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. It's ok. Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. It's ok. Everything is ok.
Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. Focus. Keep it up. Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. You're ok. You're ok. Breathe in and raise your vibration! BReathe out and release your resistance. You are safe. You are safe. Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. You're in the right place at the right time, I promise.
Breathe in and raise your vibration! You have it all! Breathe out and release your resistance. You can enjoy it! Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe! Breathe out and release your resistance. It's ok to feel this way! It's ok! You're ok!
Breathe in and raise your vibration! Breathe out and release your resistance. You're doing everything right. Just relax.
You are safe. You are loved. You are cared for. You have reached such heights. You have come so far. You are on the leading edge. Everything is perfect. You don't have to change a thing. You don't have to do anything different. Just focus, just be here. Be here now. Be here. Be here. Be here. Get out of your mind and be here. It's ok.
We are so proud of you for choosing to write when you're scared. We are so proud of you for choosing to breathe when you're panicked. We are so proud of you for choosing to care about how you feel. You are getting so good at it. You asked to be the leader of this, and you are. It's not always easy being the leader. You have to be the one to make the choice first, There is no one to follow. You are first. You wanted this.
Just relax and focus like you know how to do. We know you're scared. We know you feel like the tightrope walk is hard today. But that's ok. Just accept how you feel. Just accept this Now. Just relax. Just breathe. You must feel contrast to expand. You came here for this. You knew this was how it works.
Just relax, and allow. Just relax, and allow. You know that all that happened was that you let your focus drop for a little while. THat's all. Nothing serious, nothing life-changing, nothing you can't deal with. You can bring your vibration right back up to where it was, and beyond. You're feeling so much better already. All you have to do is write a little while and relax. Just relax and allow.
Allow us to take care of you. Allow yourself to receive love. So often you feel like you don't get credit for how good you are, but that's because you don't give yourself credit. You are so hard on yourself. You compare yourself to others constantly. You can stop that, right now, you can drop it right now.
You are loved. You are cared for. You are in the Now. You made the choice to leave your mind and enter the Now. It wasn't hard, you just had to take the first step. That's what a leader does, she takes the first step. You have come so far. You have brought so much light to the world. And you have infinite more light to shine. You'll never run out of light to shine.
Just relax, and allow. Relax, and allow. Relax, and allow. You are doing everything right. Everything is perfect. You are in the right place at the right time. You are in control of your mood. You are in control of this Now. You are your experience. Your experience is calm, and loving, and safe. You are safe. You are safe. You are healthy. You are healthy. You are healthy. You are abundant in every way. You are so blessed. You are so cared for.
None of this matters Jessica. It doesn't matter what you look like. It doesn't matter if you feel bad. It doesn't matter if it's April 11 and you still haven't done your taxes. It doesn't matter what's in your bank account. It doesn't matter what your site traffic is. It doesn't matter. None of it matters. None of it is serious. You are in a vibration that isn't serving you, because you are blocking joy from reaching you. You have access to joy, right here, right now. You have access to it. You just choose it. It really is that simple.
To choose joy, just release your thoughts. Every single time it sounds complicated, but you know it's the simplest thing you can do. Just release your thoughts. Just release your thoughts. Release your thoughts and trust the universe. Trust life to care for you. Trust life to take care of you. We know you don't care if you die, so if death doesn't scare you, money and health shouldn't either. If you aren't afraid of death, how can taxes scare you? How can little pains scare you? How can relationships scare you? Death doesn't scare you.
Just choose joy. Just choose joy. Just choose joy. What sounds most fun to you? What sounds like the best idea? What do you know you can do that would help? What feels right? What is source calling you towards? There's only four hours until bedtime, what miracles can you allow in four hours? What joy can you experience in four hours? What sounds fun? What do you want? You can have anything you want.
I feel good. I feel the best I've ever felt. I'm sober, healthy, and safe. I am loved by my wife and my kitties and my family and my friends. I have a perfect job that I look forward to every single day. I have a website that not only supports me financially but it manages my mood and helps me reach higher vibrations every day. I am doing the work I came to this life to do, right now. I am doing the work, right now. I chose to do the work. I made the choice to feel good. I made the choice to feel good. I am choosing to feel good. I am choosing to feel joy.
I could write for four hours and be doing my best work. I could close my eyes and sit still for four hours and be doing my best work. What I do is not important. It is how I feel. How I feel is all that matters. My mood is my work. My mood is my only work. All I ever want to do is "work on my projects" and here I am working on the only project that matters: my mood. None of the other shit matters. My website redesign, the podcast, Rave Cave, Magick Food, affiliate links, none of that shit matters. That's just there for fun. It's just stuff I do for fun. I never have to work on any of that shit again, and it wouldn't matter. The only project I have to work on, the only project that I KNOW I have to work on, that ALWAYS feels good, that's ALWAYS fun, is my mood. My mood is my only work.
My mood is my only work. All it takes to feel good is making the choice. The choice to think different thoughts. The choice to stop thinking. The choice to breathe. The choice to be in the Now. The choice to remember what I know.
I know I am vibration. I know I am mostly nonphysical. I know this life is not serious. I know life is not serious. I know the universe is not serious. I've seen it. I've seen the meaning of life, multiple times. I've seen it, SEEN IT, KNOWN IT. I know it. It's easy. It's easy. I know it. It's easy. The meaning of life is only this: have fun.
Doesn't that feel like relief? THe meaning of life is to have fun. Experience joy. That's all. That's all that matters. Everything else is a reflection of that. Everything else, from my health to my wealth to my home to my relationships, all of those things just reflect how much fun I'm having.
So I want to have fun. My first thought: drugs and alcohol. Since when did drugs and alcohol become the definition of fun? Gay.
What else is fun?
Astrojax are fun, when I'm in the mood (duh).
Exercise is fun, when I'm in the mood (duh).
Sex is fun, when I'm in the mood (duh).
Art is fun, when I'm in the mood (duh).
The key is to feel so good I don't care what I do. I've spent a lifetime caring about what I do. All that matters now is how I feel. And I intent to spend the rest of my lifetime caring about how I feel.
How do I feel right now?
I feel the best I've ever felt. I'm telling the story the way I want to hear it. I am focused on what I want. I am focused on what I want. I am focused on what I want.
What do I want to feel?
I want to feel universal euphoria, the feeling of mastering a tumbling routine, the feeling of knowing exactly how to execute a project and being unable to rest until I complete it. The feeling of being so in the flow that I can accomplish amazing feats effortlessly. That is all I want. That is what my life is now. I must live so in the flow that I feel constant euphoria, or it's not enough. Because I know I have to power to give myself that feeling. I have the power to choose that feeling. I have the power to choose that feeling, right now.
I can choose that feeling, right now, while I'm writing. Here is what it feels like.
It feels like sitting up straight. It feels like deep breaths. It feels like zeroing in. It feels like smiling. It feels like laughing. It feels like not caring what I'm doing because I feel so good, physically and mentally. It feels like celebrating. It feels like making my best work. It feels like tripping. It feels like being brave. Like being willing to go first. Being willing to step out into the abyss.
It feels like trust. It feels like trusting I'm in the right place at the right time. It feels like knowing what to do. It feels like allowing myself to do what I want. It feels like receiving huge sums of money and not caring because I feel too good to care. It feels like making something that I know is good. It feels like knowing exactly what to do.
It feels like unfolding a radio tuner out of my ears. It feels like leveraging power. Beckoning someone to play with me, and always succeeding in drawing them in. It feels like being light. Making jokes. Being silly. Like being in Amsterdam. Adventure. International travel. Discovering the world. Creating the world. Participating in the world.
I can have anything that I want. What do I want?
I want to be the best me I can be. I want to be the best version of myself I can be. I want to be the highest vibration I can reach. I want to be ADVENTUROUS. I want to be BRAVE. I want to be silly and light and remind myself and everyone else that LIFE IS NOT SERIOUS! THERE IS NOTHING TO BE UPSET ABOUT! There is only perfect flow, perfect balance, perfect harmony. That's all living in flow is. Feeling the balance. Feeling the harmony. Listening for it. You can live it if you can hear it. You just have to slow down enough to hear it. You can't hear the flow over jangling negative thoughts. You have to calm down and quiet your mind to hear the flow.
What is the flow telling me?
To relax, and allow. To assume the best is coming. To expect to be surprised and delighted. To be easy on myself. To smile. To remember I do have my shit together. To remember that this is just for fun.
What sounds fun?
International travel. Going within. Gymnastics. Blacking out. Getting tattooed. I always want to get tattooed. Getting pierced. Swimming. Floating the river. Flying. Being at the springs. Being around people doing inspiring things so I feel inspired too. Freestyle walking. Jumping off rooftops. Being crazy with a stranger. Letting the flow guide me on adventure.
I love you, you're doing great! I'm so glad I wrote this. I feel so much better. I just had to let the flow through. I'm so grateful writing is such a perfect default flow channel. THANK YOU BABY JESUS. Thank you life. Thank you Jessica.