I'm doing my best. I always do my best. Grateful to be home. Grateful Michael returned the car with a full tank of gas! Grateful for my family. Grateful for my kitties. Grateful for abundance surrounding me.
Grateful to remember who I am. I am the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming. If she can be the female Weezy, the black Hannah Montana, I can be the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming. What the fuck does that mean? I don't know but it's true. It makes me want to GO CRAZY.
Grateful to have people who inspire me. Grateful to feel like there are at least 2 people in the world that are on a level I want to be on. Grateful to be so full of myself that I don't care what people think of me. Grateful to only care what I think. Grateful to only care about what I feel. Grateful to do the work. Grateful TO DO THE WORK.
I"M AWESOME. I'M AWESOME. I'M AWESOME. I'M AWESOME. I'M AWESOME. I'M AWESOME.
I just want to do some crazy shit. I want the flow to take me away. I want to let go, get out of my head, stop caring. I want to have fun. I want to like myself. I want to be nice to myself. I want to not be bored. I want to feel excited. I want to feel excited from within. I want to feel good. I want to be good. I want to feel good. I want to feel the best in the whole world.
I want to feel the best. I am the best. I know how to do this. JUST DO IT.
I'm the best. I'm the best. I'm the best. I don't let my reality sway me, I sway my reality. I decide. I decide what I want, then I get it. So I'm the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming. What does that mean? What do I want? What emotion am I looking for?
I want to channel, I want to let the flow through me, I want to follow the flow. I want the flow to carry me. I want to feel the flow. I want to explode, blow up, let it come to me, FUCK SHIT UP. I want to fuck shit up. In a good way I guess.
Grateful to be me. Grateful this is my work. Grateful for Gucci. Grateful for Kelly. Grateful it's whatever I want. Grateful for this Now. Grateful for this Now. Grateful for a bedtime. Grateful to know it can only come from within. Grateful to do the work even when I'm resisting it. Grateful I know my mood is my only work.
Here are the only thoughts that matter:
I am the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming.
My mood is my work.
My mood is my work. My mood is my work. It's hard but worth it. It's worthwhile work. It's my flow. It's my flow. It's my flow. I have a flow just like everyone else. This is my flow. This here is my flow. This is my flow. This is my rap. This is my flow. Feel me flow. Feel me flow. Feel me flow. Feel me flow. Feel me flow.
This is my flow. I feel better already. This is my flow. My life is my flow. This is my flow this is what I do. This is my work. This is my work. This is my work. This is my work. This is my work.
Your mood is your work. You are the best at your work. Only you can do your work. Only you can change the course of your life. Only you can choose what's right. Only you know what to do. Only you know how to feel good. No one will tell you what to do. No one will tell you what you want. No one will tell you how to get there. It's all up to you. It's whatever you want.
What is the feeling you want?
I feel powerful. I feel the flow rushing through me. I've let go. I've let go. I don't care. Things don't have to be the way my mind thinks they should be. Only life can give me what I want, but only I have the ability to see it or not.
I want money. I want fun. I want adventure. I want to be challenged. I want to win. I want to win against my weak mind. I want the flow to prevail. I know it always does. I know that I always win. I know I'll win this too. I've always won, and I always will. I've always been the most powerful, and I always will. I know how to do this. I know how to be powerful.
How do I become the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming?
You are already there. You already have it. You are already fearless. You already put yourself out there. You already iterate every single day, multiple times a day. It's hard but you've got this. The hardest battle you fight is against yourself. There is nothing holding you back but your mind. And even that isn't doing a very good job. Appreciate your mind while you have it. Appreciate the contrast while you have it. You're in for the ride of your life, and you know it. There is nothing to resist. There is nothing to fear. You've got this.
Keep creating. Create as much as you possibly can. And project confidence and love with everything that comes out of you. Send the signal you want to receive. Give what you want to get. Be who you want to see. Be the person you want to be right now. What would that person do?
That person, this me, would be creating. Like I am doing. This person would be demonstrating how easy it is to make the choice to feel good. The person would be fearlessly flowing, not thinking about what people think.
My biggest fear in lifestreaming is being too noisy. Saying too much. Being too loud and obnoxious, updating too much. That fear comes directly from caring about what other people think about me. DIRECTLY. THAT IS CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK.
WOuld you rather keep your followers because you dim your light and quiet down and shut up and silence yourself, so people have no idea they're following you in the first place? Or would you rather feel your best all the time because you are DOING THE WORK YOU CAME TO THIS LIFE TO DO, all the time, 24-7?? Would you rather care about what people think, or spend more time caring about what you think?
THE ANSWER IS SO SIMPLE. You can't update too much. You can't create too much. This is just your flow. That's all there is to it. Rappers record, rappers write lyrics, rappers freestyle, rappers let the flow out they mouths. You let it out your fingers, that's the only difference. SO CHILL OUT AND BE THE BEST LIFESTREAMER YOU CAN BE, THE PERSON YOU KNOW YOU ARE. BE THE LIGHT YOU CAME HERE TO BE. BE THE PERSON YOU WANT TO BE, RIGHT NOW!
I vow to be noisy. I vow to be loud. I vow to turn people off with the force of my flow. I vow to turn people on with the force of my flow. I VOW TO BE WHO I AM WITHOUT CARING ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK. I vow to be the person I came here to be. I vow to be as LOUD AS I WANT TO BE.
Let the flow through you. Let it through you all day, every day. You cannot create too much. You cannot take too many photos. You cannot be in the moment too much. You cannot appreciate your life too much.
I vow to not care what people think. I vow to let the flow through me. I vow to be my authentic self. I vow to be me.
There is no value judgement in lifestreaming. I can just stream and not judge. Stream without judgement. Stream without judgement. Stream without judgement. The flow knows. My lifestream is literally my flow, literally life living me, literally my stream of life.
I vow to be nice to myself and do whatever I want. I vow to be me. I vow to be the Nicki Minaj of lifestreaming. I vow to never shut up. I vow to be loud. I vow to STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME.
I vow to be crazy. I vow to be impulsive. I vow to NOT GIVE A FUCK.