I am in love with what is [gathering momentum]

August 20, 2011
by Jessica Mullen

I am so grateful to be awake and alive! I'm so grateful I slept for more than 6 hours! I'm so grateful for my vivid dreams! I'm so grateful for my comfortable bed! I'm so grateful I get to wake up next to Kelly every day! I'm so grateful Kelly won poker yesterday! I'm so grateful she's so good at it and always gives me pro tips! "Never play a bad hand, and when you have a good hand, play hard."

I'm so grateful it's Saturday! I'm so grateful we went grocery shopping yesterday! I'm so grateful I live in Austin, Texas! I'm so grateful to be an Astrojax vendor! I'm so grateful it's so easy to get info from the city about vending. I'm so grateful I got my sales tax permit! I'm so grateful to be a legit business! I'm so grateful for Astrojax. I'm so grateful I got to play for so long last night. I'm so grateful I get to help spread the AJ word!

I'm so grateful for my body. I'm so grateful she is healthy and fit. I'm so grateful for my muscles and clear skin. I'm so grateful for my pretty hair and smile. I'm so grateful for the clarity I feel. I'm so grateful I know to say yes to what is. I'm so grateful I get to choose my thoughts. I'm so grateful for the school of life design forum. I'm so grateful for all the people I meet through my site.

I'm so grateful for our apartment! I'm so grateful money is infinite. I'm so grateful I have infinite resources. I'm so grateful there is always more. I'm so grateful I can choose what thoughts I want to think. I'm so grateful I can type quickly. I'm so grateful for nag champa! I'm so grateful I am able to let go of more and more possessions. I'm so grateful for hula hoops. I'm so grateful for my funfile. I'm so grateful I fill out a universal grocery list every day.

I'm so grateful I choose to focus on gratitude first thing in the morning. I'm so grateful I have friends helping me figure out how to best be an AJ vendor. I'm so grateful I know there is no rush. I'm so grateful I've been practicing the vibration of perfect timing. I'm so grateful for a fresh day and a fresh head. I'm so grateful we get to go to a fun show tonight! I'm so grateful I know this city so well. I'm so grateful circus is tomorrow! I hope we go!

Wouldn't it be nice if I didn't have to get a ROW permit to sell AJs on the street? Wouldn't it be nice if someone else helped me figure out a stand to hang them from? Wouldn't it be nice if everything about my AJ business worked itself out effortlessly? Wouldn't it be nice to draw huge, paying crowds when I finally do start selling on the street? Wouldn't it be nice to start a huge AJ trend with kids in Austin? Wouldn't it be nice for my business to spread by word of mouth? Wouldn't it be nice to introduce everyone I meet to AJ? (Wait... I already do!) Wouldn't it be nice if everything related to the business worked itself out without any direct effort? Meaning, wouldn't it be nice to only deal with my AJ business in the vortex?!

Wouldn't it be nice to get 10 bluehost referrals today? Wouldn't it be nice to find a way to promote bluehost some more, vibrationally? Wouldn't it be nice to help more people get set up with websites? Wouldn't it be nice to help my friends get websites? Wouldn't it be nice if everyone had a website they wrote on every day? Wouldn't it be nice to get 10 donations today?

Wouldn't it be nice to remember that if I want more money, I have to be so ok with not getting the money that if I got it, I'd be almost disappointed to get it? Maybe disappointed isn't the way to say it. I have to be so ok with not getting more money, that if I'll be excited if things stay that way. Like when you want something so bad, but over time you forget about it and find something else to fill that "void", so when you actually get the thing, you don't really care about it. It happened to me when I wanted an Android phone. I wanted it so bad! But then I settled for an iphone because it was way easier. A couple months later, I won a free Android phone in a contest. So silly!

Wouldn't it be nice to learn better how to be at peace with what is? Wouldn't it be nice to work on that little equation some more? Wouldn't it be nice to think myself into alignment about money? Wouldn't it be nice to make vibrational progress? Wouldn't it be nice to level up?

How am I expanding?
I want to think myself into alignment. I want to do the work myself. I want to focus. I want clarity in my vibration. I want to trust the process of life. I want to find super-resonant thoughts. I want to have fun. I want to laugh. I want to feel giddy and euphoric and relieved. I want to remember that it all comes from within. I want to remember that nothing asserts itself on me. I want to remember that my alignment is the only thing that matters. I want to remember that the more work I do to improve my inner world, the more the external world will reflect that.

I want to remember that my mood is my only work. I want to remember that I am taken care of, and that everything already worked out for me. I want to remember that life is supposed to be fun! I want to direct my thoughts. I want to be at peace with what is. I want to say yes to what is. I want to look for the miracle in every moment. I want to release more possessions. I want to find more ways to be generous. I want to reach higher highs. I want to ride the wave for longer and longer. I want to flow. I want to remember there is flow in everything, in every moment. I want to remember what I know.

I know I am vibration. I know my thoughts create. I know that what I think about, I bring about. I know that life is supposed to be fun. I know that I am a perfect being in a perfect body expanding consciousness in a perfect way. I know that everything is perfect and in its place. I know everything always works out. I know that I am doing my best work. I know that my mood is my only work. I know that I don't have to DO anything to see the manifestations I desire. I know that it is an emotional journey every single time. I know that as soon as I make peace with what IS, my circumstances can change. I know that saying yes to what is is the only way to get what I want.

I want to focus. I want to be at peace. I want to see my inner stillness and peace reflected in my experience. I want to have fun! I want to laugh! I want to feel good! I want to feel the best I've ever felt! I want to feel enormous relief! I want to run! I want to go to the trampoline park! I want to fly! I want to choose to feel good no matter what. I want to love myself unconditionally. I want to say yes to what is. I want to say yes to what is. I want to be so happy with what is that I'll be like "hey, I was just getting used to that!" when things change for the better. I want to remember that everything is working out. I want to let go. I want to feel energetic and euphoric and blissful. I want to do the work myself. I want to direct my thoughts in every moment.

I want to practice Wake-Initiated lucid dreaming! I want to do more reality testing!

What I want to feel

Euphoria. A profound sense of well being. Everything IS perfect and in its place!

Today I intend to look for the miracle in every moment. Today I intend to live in the Now. Today I intend to be present. Today I intend to find more ways to be generous. Today I intend to say yes to what is.

I love choosing to focus. I love the power of thought direction. I love that I can write any time I want to focus. I love being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want! I love having fresh produce. I love lucid dreaming. I love Kelly. I love finding things to appreciate about my life.

Things I appreciate

I appreciate Kelly. I appreciate how she always does the cleaning and laundry. I appreciate how she is my social director. I appreciate her ease with people. I appreciate how she can talk to anyone easily. I appreciate her backrubs! I appreciate her good craftsmanship. I appreciate her calm nature. I appreciate her need to take breaks. I appreciate her beautiful smile and pretty voice. I appreciate the fact that she is an oracle! I appreciate that she is a master of physical reality! I appreciate her fearlessness. I appreciate her boldness. I appreciate her sense of humor. I appreciate her dedication to doing good work. I appreciate her desire to focus and feel good. I appreciate her ability to explain complex concepts to me. I appreciate how good of a designer she is! I appreciate her public speaking ability. I appreciate her oral flow. I appreciate how sweet she is to me. I appreciate how much she loves me! I appreciate her beautiful, strong body. I appreciate her good attitude. I appreciate her ability to have fun and play. I appreciate how far she has come vibrationally. I appreciate her good health and ability to direct her thoughts. I appreciate her power.

I appreciate my financial situation. I appreciate how I have plenty of money to pay my bills and rent. I appreciate that money is always flowing into my paypal account. I appreciate how many different ways I make money. I appreciate always having the perfect amount of cash, no matter what. I appreciate my fantastic credit. I appreciate the people who help me with my finances. I appreciate how I get to learn more about the vibration of abundance every day. I appreciate how I know abundance doesn't mean money. I appreciate that there are so many ways to get what you want without money. I appreciate that I always have enough, I've always had enough, and I'll always have enough. I appreciate being a business owner. I appreciate being an entrepreneur. I appreciate being a risk taker! I appreciate that I love my ideas enough that I am confident in working for myself. I appreciate the people who donate money to me in exchange for good feelings they received from this site. I appreciate people who sign up for web hosting with bluehost. I appreciate having enough money to share. I appreciate being able to do microloans. I appreciate being able to give away food. I appreciate it when I can give away astrojax. I appreciate having cash to give homeless people. I appreciate always having plenty to share.

I appreciate my car. I appreciate the acceleration and gas mileage. I appreciate the color. I appreciate that I drive a 2011 car! I appreciate the bluetooth stereo! I appreciate how clean it is. I appreciate how Kelly always helps me keep it clean. I appreciate getting it washed and having it look brand new. I appreciate how comfortable the seats are. I appreciate how far cars have evolved since my 2002 civic. I appreciate my dad for giving me the car! I appreciate how generous my dad is. I appreciate how kind he is. I appreciate how much he cares about my comfort and safety. I appreciate being taken care of. I appreciate driving so much. I love driving! I love being good at driving. I appreciate having inexpensive car insurance. I appreciate always having plenty of gas.

I appreciate my kitties! I appreciate how they hang out with us in the bed or when I'm on my computer. I appreciate watching them sun themselves in the sliver of natural light that comes in the afternoon. I appreciate that Pwny loves to play with pipe cleaners! I appreciate that Lint loves to sleep next to me! I appreciate it when Pwny sleeps on our pillows above our heads. I appreciate how healthy they are! I appreciate how calm and well behaved they are. I appreciate how they let me cut their nails easily. I appreciate it when they get effed up on catnip! I appreciate their cute meows. I appreciate that I don't have to take them for walks! I appreciate when I do put them on a leash! I appreciate how much they love being around us. I appreciate how they are ok with just "being".

I appreciate my computer. I appreciate how I have all the software I need to do graphic design, web design and podcasting. I appreciate my fast internet and google chrome. I appreciate how efficient and reliable my macbook pro is. I appreciate the bright screen and how portable my computer is. I appreciate how comfortable the keyboard is. I appreciate how reliable my computer is. I appreciate how well it works. I appreciate how fast it runs. I appreciate the large hard drive. I appreciate how it always can do everything I want it to.

I appreciate the Now. I appreciate the sensation of standing at my desk typing. I appreciate listening to Poetize Code while writing. I appreciate how I've had so much time to write. I appreciate how hungry I am because breakfast is going to taste really good. I appreciate my focus and clarity. I appreciate my devotion to thought direction. I appreciate the feel of my silk night...shirt. I appreciate having my funfile open next to me with a fresh grocery list for the day, already filled out to space 11! I appreciate the way my apartment smells like nag champa! I appreciate how healthy I feel. I appreciate that I feel rested! I appreciate my level of alertness. I appreciate my good mood! I appreciate being in the Now. I appreciate the Now. I love the Now.