I say yes to what is | gathering momentum

July 18, 2011
by Jessica Mullen

I am so grateful for Astrojax. I am so grateful that I bought four sets of Shivas and got to take them all apart and refill them and learn their inner workings. I'm so grateful they were a fun experiment wherein I got to purchase a syringe and find another use for electrical tape. I'm so grateful to be so into AJs that I don't care when I ruin sets, because they always teach me something. I'm so grateful I'm this into a toy. It's really nice having an excuse to play all the time.

I'm so grateful I am choosing focus. Whenever I sit down to write and come out of my cloud of thought, I feel such relief. I am so grateful for The Power of Now because it is explaining thought in ways I've always dreamed of. I am so grateful for that book. It has changed my life dramatically.

I am so grateful for our friends. I am so grateful that a lot of our friends stay up late. I'm so grateful for all the people I've met in Austin. They are all such beautiful treasures. I am so grateful for all of my experiences here.

I am so grateful I live in an amazing apartment complex. I'm so grateful I got to talk to a bunch of people while swimming today. I'm so grateful I got to GO swimming today! I'm so grateful swimming helps my knee so much. I'm so grateful for Advil! I'm so grateful we are going back to BODY PUMP TOMORROW!!!!! I'm so grateful I am willing to try going back even if I can't do the whole class. I'm so grateful I am teaching myself how to look for the positive aspects of things, like how many tracks I CAN do, and what I DO like about certain music on Pandora (because Pandora is a magick tool that you can use to test the powers of thought! Start thinking about what you like about the station or type of music you want to hear, instead of what you don't like, and the station will evolve and improve, thumbs up/thumbs down or not!)

I'm so grateful for dubstep. I'm so grateful for all the different types of music I've gotten into since I've lived here.

I'm so grateful for my universal grocery list. I'm so grateful I've filled out 24 spaces already today. That's 24 things I've noticed since I got up (7 hours ago) that I want more of. I can think of more too, any time! It's so amazing! It WORKS so well!

I'm so grateful we've been getting rid of so much more stuff. I love getting rid of possessions. It is SO FREAKING LIBERATING.

Wouldn't it be nice to find the perfect activity for this evening? Wouldn't it be nice to be inspired to create art or write? Wouldn't it be nice to make a whole new life design lesson, about conscious living and consciousness evolution? Wouldn't it be nice to simplify? Wouldn't it be nice to use my design skills to explain what I KNOW to be true, so that more people can understand what I know? Wouldn't it be nice to remember that everyone already knows what I know, they just have to look for it? Wouldn't it be nice to remember that I don't have to do anything to change anyone else, all I have to do is take care of my own inner world and the outer reflects... and THAT is why you should always create for yourself, because you are all that is.

Wouldn't it be nice to use graphic design in my communication more? Wouldn't it be nice to start a new project? Wouldn't it be nice to have the new project come to me? Wouldn't it be nice to work with shape, and color, and image, and type, and whitespace and contrast and photoshop and illustrator? Wouldn't it be nice to make a book? Wouldn't it be nice to be inspired to return emails etc? Wouldn't it be nice to change the way I think about email? Wouldn't it be nice to remember that every time I return them, I am inspired and gratefuL?

Wouldn't it be nice to make magick pellets and tacos tonight? Wouldn't it be nice to keep up my fantastic attitude today?! :D

How am I expanding?
I am so practiced. I am so observant. I am the silent watcher more and more every day. It's so easy and fun. I realize I am not my thoughts. I step away from them by thinking "I wonder what my next thought will be?" and it's almost like I get to play a joke on my mind. Either my mind realizes I'm trying to catch it being a negative nellie and it spits out something positive (win!) or it comes up with some more BS and I, from my perspective of silent watcher, get to laugh at the thought, knowing it is not true, and that it is harmless. It is nothing. I am not a victim to my thoughts.

I step away from my thoughts and once I am the watcher, I am not trapped by my thoughts. As the watcher, I don't attract more negativity, because I don't become the thought and vibrate for more of it.

I am getting better and better. The past week has been a retreat/trip into the now. I am so peaceful. I am so calm. I am having so much fun! It gets easier and easier to step away from fear. It gets easier to be light. It gets easier to say yes to what is. When you accept everything around you, everything around accepts you, it flows, and you get exactly what you want.