Good afternoon! I am so grateful to be awake! I am so grateful Kelly paid the rent while I loafed! I am so grateful to be building up momentum again! I am so grateful I am able to observe more and more of the vibrational nature of the universe. I am so grateful for the buildup of the wave, and then the crash, so that I can build it up again.
I am so grateful for opportunities to think thoughts I haven't thought before. I am so grateful I have the beginnings of a media kit. That's really neat. I'm so grateful for apples and apple corers. I'm so grateful to be training for a marathon, because it helps me feel so good and strong. I'm so grateful to be taking the time to line up my energy today. I'm so grateful it's December, vacation month! I'm so grateful that I got to sleep off a wave crash last night. I could feel it. It could have been the caffeine, but I think it was just crashing momentum... How long does it take to build a wave back up? Can it be done instantly? Can I just hop on the top of another wave without doing the paddling on my surfboard? Do surfers like the paddling on the surfboard part? Would they rather just jump on wave after wave and never have to swim back out to sea? You'd probably get pretty good at riding waves but might loose your swimmin muscles... So is this where the sink or swim cliche comes in?
I'm so grateful that these are the thoughts I get to think now. Everyone is so into the vortex right now, like Josh Harris being obsessed with the "groove" and the book Flow... Did we as a society forget how to feel good recently, like post-industrialization? Or are we just now remembering it after a long long time?
I'm so grateful I have a running partner. I'm so grateful I live in such comfort and luxury. I'm so grateful that Kelly just sent me this song to listen to - we heard it at the Y and it is the jaaaaam.
I'm so grateful we get to run outside today. I'm so grateful for focus. I'm so grateful that I can turn into flow any time I want. I'm so grateful I know how to find the groove, the flow, the vortex. I just have to choose to feel good.
Today I intend to feel good. Today I intend to build up momentum again. Today I intend to get slizzard. Today I intend to have fun. Today I intend to want to want to feel good. Today I intend to find my inspiration. It's so weird. It's like I dropped it. Today I intend to DO WHAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD. Today I intend to get into the vortex. Today I intend to find the groove. Today I intend to go with the flow. I intend to get back in. I intend to turn back in. I don't know how I'll do it and I don't really care, but I'm getting the fuck back in there! It's not that serious to be outside. It's interesting. It's calm. It's chill. There's no pressure. It's like being in a little puddle on the beach with starfish in it. What are those called? Being outside the flow is how you find out what you want. I know what I don't want, so what do I want? I want to wake up feeling good. I want to be in control of my thoughts 24/7. I want to think the following thoughts:
- Nothing matters.
- Go with the flow.
- My ability to feel good is not affected by anyone else.
- I can feel as good as I choose to.
- There is no rush.
- Today can be the best day of my life.
- I want to feel good.
- I am inspired.
- I'm doing everything right.
Ah that's the one I was looking for. I'm doing everything right. There is no reason to feel stress, or inadequacy, or sadness, or boredom. I'm doing everything right. Whatever I feel like doing is the right thing. And right now I feel like writing. It is the absolute best thing I can do. Today is a new day. A new chance for momentum. A new opportunity to have the most fun ever. A new chance to ride a higher wave than ever. When I'm out it doesn't matter. When I'm irritated it only means I'm irritated at myself. There is something in my vibration projecting irritation. What is it? Why is it? It doesn't matter. I don't have to choose to feel irritation. I'm not powerless against irritation. I can choose pessimism, or boredom, or contentment instead. And if I can feel contentment, I can surely feel optimism and hopefulness. I can feel belief and expectation and passion and joy. Those aren't that far away. And when I get to belief, I'm there. I'm on top of the wave. What will it take to get to belief? What is it I want to believe? I want to believe that my thoughts control my reality. Well, I already believe that. I want thoughts to think that feel good. What do I believe? I am a vibrational being and my thoughts determine my experience. SO all I have to do is change my thoughts.
I'm doing everything right. I'm doing everything right. I'm doing everything right. I'm doing everything right. I'm doing everything right. There should be thoughts listed next to each emotion so I can have something default to think about.
I can have a really fun day. I can cast spells. I can cast a spell right now on my day. I can control how this day goes. I can choose to do the things that will make me feel good.
Eat a smoothie.
Bring my notebook to poker.
Win $50. In an hour.
Be a witch. Bewitch. Practice on everyone around me. I'm casting a spell on you!
Let's have fun.
Sell my phone.
Think thoughts that feel good.
I'm a witch. I have control over this. Everyone I see is a potential partner in crime.
I am beautiful. I am powerful. I am fun. I am all smiles and eyes.
Clair, tell me a story.
When you were young you predicted this moment would come. You lived outside of time sometimes. What is this moment? It felt like sand. You were just observing the vibrational nature of the universe through your dream. The sand waves you felt, they were just the vibration of the time.
Lost my connection, started second guessing. But that connection can be opened any time.
Wouldn't it be nice to keep finding ways to feel good? Wouldn't it be nice to transform my mood and my day in this post? Wouldn't that be such a triumph? Wouldn't it be nice to be invited to do really fun things today? Wouldn't it be nice to be a creature of the night? Wouldn't it be nice to not feel rushed? Wouldn't it be nice to make tacos with Kelly? Wouldn't it be nice to win $50? Wouldn't it be nice to find quarters on the ground? Wouldn't it be nice to find a treasure box full of treasure? Like mystical potions and gold doubloons?
Wouldn't it be nice to feel the wave picking up right now? It's starting right now, hop on! The wave is here! Hop on! Hop on! You can do it! It's easy! Wouldn't it be nice to go with the flow and not worry about anything? Wouldn't it be nice to have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to have enough time to do everything I wanted? Wouldn't it be nice to not get off this wave for a month? I can do it! Why is a month such a magickal duration for me... it's because I think that's how long it takes for a habit to develop. Wouldn't it be nice to not think in terms of duration, but instead think of moments? Am I on the wave now? No, then jump on! I don't have to build up a huge wave before getting on. I can do it every moment.
Wouldn't it be nice to keep this momentum flowing into me? I'm allowing well being I'm allowing well being I'm allowing well being. I can feel it flowing into me. I want to meditate. I want to feel well being. I didn't meditate yesterday because I was too busy writing. Taking days off is nice to see the contrast but I really want to do it today! I haven't taken a day off in a long time.
Guess what guys, I'm feeling hope. If I can feel hope, I can feel belief! I can get there! As long as I don't feel rushed, I can get there in my own time. If there is no pressure to get there, I'm already there.
I'm allowing well being. I can visualize it flowing into me. I can visualize my $10,000/month passive income. I can visualize my perfect physical body. I can visualize running a 9:00/mile marathon pace.
Wouldn't it be nice to keep building momentum today? If it isn't a FUCK YEAH, don't do it!
And right now, the only fuck yeahs in my universe are running and meditating.
I love running and meditating. I love writing these posts to raise my vibration. I love that I can read this and read how I got there. I love that I did it so rationally, without crying that I was out of the vortex. I love that I can do it. I can choose to feel good. I can choose to go from irritation to belief. I can choose to let go of irritation. I can choose to feel good. I love feeling good. I love finding new ways to feel good. I love doing exactly what I want, when I want. I love working out. I love doing pushups and crunches. I love waking up early. I love having days of long sleeping so I don't have to do it again for a few days. I love being in control of my vibration. I love cleaning out mental cobwebs. I love getting myself to smile. I used to always be such a pick me up for boyfriends and lovers, always making them feel good when they were down. It was like my job to make other people feel good. And that was the only way I could make myself feel good, was if I made other people feel good. I didn't know how to make myself feel good. I didn't know how to cheer myself up. Now I do!
I love cheering myself up. I love being my own pet. I love playing video games. It can be fun to go back a level and collect the coins I missed. It can be interesting to see things again, from a new perspective. It can be fun to visualize the things I want. I love visualizing my perfect body. I love knowing how to feel good about my body. I love that I already wrote the outline for Lesson 8. I love that I'm going to start including PDF cheat sheets in the lessons. I love that I can start writing the lesson today if I want. I love that I can make every opportunity interesting and fun. I love that everything is about attitude and perspective. I love being in control of my vibration. I love writing public posts to cheer myself up. I love that I can do that. I love that this really is a magick spell, because it got me here. And I would cast a magick spell that made me feel better any day. It's easy. It just takes a little time. If you're not rushed, you can do anything. Being rushed is bogus. It should be outlawed.
JK. I love that nothing can be outlawed because this is an attraction based universe with no such thing as no. I love that I can take the other side of the wave. I love that each moment is an opportunity to turn things around. I love that that is pretty much a rip off of some movie quote that I've never seen.
Still, I took this moment, and I turned things around. I'm riding the wave now. It's fun. It's easy. I can do anything. I can choose to feel good. I make myself feel good. I write freaky posts like this that may be unreadable to anyone else but they serve me well so that's all that matters. Why care about what anyone else things.
I love feeling good. I love that I brought myself here. I love that I did the work. I took the emotional journey. I made myself feel good. And now the choice is up to me to keep feeling better all day. Keep the momentum building. It's easy. I'm already doing everything right, and I'm allowing well being. Time to feel good and have fun!