Emotional hygiene | November 17, 2010 | finding my way back to el vórtice

Emotional hygiene | November 17, 2010 | finding my way back to el vórtice

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Good morning! I am so grateful I am awake and inspired! I am so grateful to wake up to such nice comments on my site and on Facebook! I am so grateful I get to continue working on lesson 7 today! I am so grateful I had such bizarre dreams! I'm so grateful I remembered them!

I am so grateful that even though only I can control my mood, input from other people can really help me along. I'm so grateful that we can uplift each other, and help each other feel good. I'm so grateful one person can change my perspective on my work enough to get me excited about it again. I'm so grateful people take the time to share what they love. I'm so grateful for people who say what they think and put it online. I'm so grateful for the internet for allowing us all to share what makes us feel good.

I'm so grateful to be excited about so many things today. First, there is Life Design Lesson 7 which is shaping up beautifully! I'm so excited about THE VORTEX, which just means FEELING GOOD. But the reason I am so excited about the vortex is because THAT IS WHERE ALL THE IDEAS ARE. Abraham explained it so well. When people have an experience where they find something they DON'T want, like a pair of jeans, then they put an idea for a more perfect pair of jeans into their vortex. The thing is that the vortex is also a collective mass consciousness. When I am "in the vortex" (feeling super good), then I have access to all the ideas that other people have put there. It's how people get inspired. The ideas don't come out of nowhere, they come from THE VORTEX.

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I'm still excited about the idea of supertrials, and am thinking about what my own might look like. I'm excited that I finally understand the idea that to feel good, I have to make peace with what is. If there are three things I've learned from Abraham, they are these:

  1. Feel good.
  2. Feel good right now by making peace with what is.
  3. Inspired ideas only come when you feel good.

I'm so grateful that I feel so good today. I'm so grateful that I got to experience a shitload of contrast the past few days. I'm so grateful that even though I was "experiencing contrast," I wasn't sabotaging my efforts or beating myself up or feeling bad. I'm so grateful I have a new tattoo that really works! I'm so grateful that every time I look at it I think "wouldn't it be nice if..."! I'm so grateful that I look at tattoos as tools to help me feel better! I'm so grateful that I love my life so much!

in bed meditation!
OMG I just remembered about our meditation last night before bed, I'm so grateful we did it! Because I got to talk to my "higher self" for real real this time! Her name is Clair. When I spoke to her, I asked for help. And then I almost started crying at the relief I felt that I had someone to ask for help. And she replied that of course she would help, but all I had to do right then was let go of thought. It was huge! It was such a big deal! At the time I took it in stride and didn't talk about it afterwards or anything, but it changed everything! I'm tearing up just thinking about it now!

new phone!
I'm so grateful my new iphone came yesterday! I'm so grateful I'll set that bitch up when I get a chance... I have no idea how to get my apps. And getting my contacts seems to involve something with a SIM card, so I'll just let that be for now...

Finally, I am so grateful to be excited about my new "declarations" which I am working on repeating to myself every day and refining until they are exactly what I want. I'm so grateful I live in a New Age Playboy mansion. I'm so grateful I have entirely passive income. I'm so grateful I have a 10:00/mile marathon pace! I'm so grateful I have the perfect physical body. I'm so grateful I'm working on the School of Life Design book! I'm so grateful we have a thriving TPP fan club! I'm so grateful my life is full of sex, drugs & dubstep! Hehe.

Today I intend to keep this momentum moving. Today I intend to meditate. Today I intend to pwn our 5 mile run. Today I intend to make serious progress on Lesson 7. Today I intend to have fun. Today I intend to keep the plates spinning. Today I intend to make peace with what is. (Like losing my driver's license. I needed to get my address changed on it anyway, so I don't care that I lost it :D) Today I intend to uplift others! Today I intend to smile and have fun everywhere I go! Today I intend to be charming and beautiful! Today I intend to be magickal! Today I intend to return my emails! Today I intend to work on TPP! Today I intend to get the things done I want to get done! Today I intend to take advantage of my GREAT MOOD!

Wouldn't it be nice if I got Lesson 7 mostly done? Wouldn't it be nice if we published our 3 backlogged TPP eps? Wouldn't it be nice to find my ID? Wouldn't it be nice to activate my new phone? Wouldn't it be nice to pwn our 5 mile run? Wouldn't it be nice to start a supertrial? Wouldn't it be nice to manifest some money today? Wouldn't it be nice to be able to make peace with what is every day? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to take the garbage out and clean up our place? Wouldn't it be nice to meet some new friends? Wouldn't it be nice to meet some hot older friends? Wouldn't it be nice to not get out of the vortex again? Wouldn't it be nice to remember how much easier it was to get back in this time?

mmm we eat so well
(We go on little benders where we get a little crazy going out drinking and having fun. Then we have to return to normal "working" life and the transition is hard. When you're self-employed, it's easy to want to have fun ALL the time. But the thing is that work is fun too! It's just transitioning from a "let's go out and party" mindset to a "let's feel good and work and uplift others" mindset that can be daunting. But this time was our best effort! We didn't overeat or get depressed or fight or want to kill ourselves, we just took care of our vibration by eating well, exercising, and meditating. Also we slept SO MUCH. And now look, here I am in the vortex! I'm here! I'm here! I'm milking it! I'm in the vortex! I'm so proud of myself for getting back in without feeling bad!)

Wouldn't it be nice to change the litter and have a perfectly clean apartment? Wouldn't it be nice to hear from Michael again? Wouldn't it be nice to record a podcast with Javier this weekend? Wouldn't it be nice to have a really great idea for it? Wouldn't it be nice to return those emails?! Wouldn't it be nice to write my to-do list and make a new supertrial page in my sketchbook and keep milking this in the vortex feeling??

LOVE
I love feeling good! I love that feeling good is the most important thing I can do! I love that I care so much about how I feel! I love that last night when I wasn't feeling so great, I said to myself "just turn back into the flow of well being" and I replied "but it's hard" and I said "no it's not hard! it's easy, just turn back into the flow. let go. just turn back into the flow." And I said "ok I'll try, but what should I do to turn back into the flow?" And I replied "meditate!" And so I did, and it worked! I can have a logical conversation with myself about feeling good now! I can listen to myself! I can trust myself! I love that I can trust myself! I love that I worked out so much in this post! I love that my understanding of life and feeling good and the vortex is so much deeper than it was before this post! I love tying up all the loose ends and making sense of everything! I love that this post is public! I love that I work on feeling good every single day! I love that I know how to feel good! I love that I can feel good and then good ideas will FLOW to me! I love that I have so many good ideas saved up for execution (like the conceptualization for the School of Life Design book is DONE, and the plans for the TPP fan club are DONE, and our menu is almost DONE and we have our next TPP episode idea DONE and all the ideas are in place for Lesson 7 and we have ideas for Christmas presents and for new income streams and pretty much everything is worked out!) I love that I don't have to worry about anything! I love that worrying is wishing for things you don't want! I love that I know when I'm in the vortex because problems are interesting, not annoying! I love that I get to continue on feeling good all day and nothing can stop me! I love that now that I'm in the vortex, all I have to do is keep the momentum going and keep listening to myself! I love that I met Clair! I love that Clair helps me! I love that Clair is me! I love that all this shit is so freaky and I LOVE IT!!!

And I love me some treasures, you know I do...

  • I want to use this recipe from the Front Burner Blog for our Thanksgiving vegan gravy.
  • I love hearing about high society Halloween parties! This article certainly expanded my desires...
  • I came across Katie West, who does gorgeous nude self-portraits. Her writing is rather exquisite as well.
Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
3 COMMENTS
  • Emma

    Awesome post! I love the link to the supertrials. I’m starting one straight away! I love your experiences with meditation, it’s so lovely. It really makes me want to start that as a daily practice too!

  • jessica mullen

    Thanks Emma! Meditation has completely changed my life for the better. It’s such a simple way to feel good, and it works every time!

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